Every time I want to tell you

The truth, you ask me

For a lie.

I want to say I did that because

I hated him in the moment and

Wanted nothing but revenge

Blood for blood

Pain for pain

Heart break for heart break

But what you want to hear

Is that it was a silly mistake

A misunderstanding

A miscommunication of words.

I want to tell you that I’m hurt

There is a needle in my heart

That pricks all day, I’m aware

Of it all the time, that

I don’t want to smile right now

Not today

But you ask for a smile

You want me to say

“I’m fine”

I want you to know that with

Him life is different now; we

Are on two unsimilar paths

And yes things were beautiful

When they were well

Now too much has changed

Including him and me

But you want to hear

That we will try

To be the same people again.

I want to tell you the truth

That sometimes forests burn

Flowers go dry; shores are

Washed away, roses prick; and

Crows are not secretly singing

profound songs; but all you want

Is to turn towards the sun

And close your eyes.