Writing is scary. Everytime I sit down to write, it freaks me out. THEY freak me out, the things I wanna talk about.
Some too personal. Too close.
Some too sad.
Others too preachy.
or some are just so manically happy.
It is hard to decide what lie to choose.
It is scary cause my mind is convinced that someone will look through the words and see what's been hiding all along. No one needs to know. My fears, my tears, my truths, my stories; they are just mine and mine alone.
That's one way to look at it.
ReplyDeleteWriting is scary, I agree. When it is more about us which we don't usually want others to know about it - can be referred as personal things.
I too had the same thing difficulty.
But the beauty of writing is that you can create story as personalize your story with the use of a story or something like that. In that way, we can get out everything we had to ourselves till now, in an indirect way.
I write about every little pity thing about me, because it gives me peace of mind at some point of time, if not always. We just can't shut ourselves , right ? We have to come out and let that little pain go, somehow. And that's where writing comes.
I know this comment sounds lame, sorry about that. But I had to tell you, I mean write. :)
Take Care.
haha! No! That is not lame at all. But no matter how impersonal a story I write, it will always remain a reflection of me. And it doesn't matter how many characters I weave or how different the plot is from anything that ever happened to me, my stories will always draw a picture of who I am. And it's just somehow scary to think that people will see what I've been trying to mask so well in the story.
DeleteBut I guess I'll continue writing. It's a hard thing to let go. And when it's difficult to talk to people about problems, writing really helps in a strange way.
Thank you for the comment.
This is why I regret disclosing my identity on my blog at times. Cause even though this is where we claim to actually speak out, we're not really able to say exactly what we want to all the time. I for instance am always apprehensive about friends or family discovering my deepest darkest secrets, which at times I feel like sharing on my blog for the simple reason that I need to talk about them in front of SOMEBODY.
ReplyDeleteI TOTALLY understand that. If only there were better options to get it all out!
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